ECU is strange. School is over and finals occur over a period of two weeks. Because finals are so spread out everyone suddenly seems to have more free time. Random get togethers with friends have been occuring since Friday, the last day of classes. I spent tonight at the park, tossing around the frisbee with several of my church friends. It was simply fantastic. Besides the fact that everything somehow becomes 10x more funny when we're all together, the weather was PERFECT.
It hit me halfway through the night, and about mid frisbee toss, how much I don't want to leave this summer. That relization pretty much tainted my mood for the rest of the night. I just don't understand the way I feel. I dearly love all of my friends. But, like any normal relationships, sometimes I get incredibly frustrated and annoyed with them. I am going home to place most people are dying to just visit! While I might be missing out on adventures here, I'll have pleanty of my own in CA. I am only going to be gone for FOUR months and yet I am so sad at the prospect of leaving I feel like crying. Why do I feel like this?? Maybe I'm thinking about really leaving when I graduate...I don't know. I've said this before and I'll say it again. I think if I had known it would be this emotinally hard I would never have come here.
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I often felt the same way with Wheaton. I'm glad you're going through that mix of emotions. It's part of what makes college such an odd and yet awesome time in life.
Awww.. Becca... if you had never gone out there, you would have missed out on wonderful friends and memories! They are not involved with your heart, they shape who you are, and have played a role in your adventure out there... Of course, I can't fully understand, but speaking from experience, even though my college years are gone, I can look back with such fond memories... and they make me smile! I understand change is hard... but just to let you know... we are definitely looking forward to having you out here in California this summer!! :)
Bec...I just caught up on your last several entries here. they always make me laugh. Your laundry pictures, southern phrases, chicken farming (lol), Mozart and the Whale, Frisbee, the pool....sigh. Such good times. you will be missed.
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